i think i seriously need a break .
i don't know what i had been doing this holidays .
did i remember what i learnt when my tuition teacher teaches ?
or am i just listening and nothing gets into my head ?
is this telling me im trying to give up or i just have no more confidence ?

am i doing this for myself
or am i doing this for my parents and the people around me ?
am i having fun this holidays
or am i just drowning myself in this fun when i am not ?
am i doing this on my own
or am i doing this because people tell me to ?

i cannot even answer this questions that no one can answer ,
except myself .

when are you coming back ? i need your help . perhaps only you can solve them for me =x